In the process of change, olicognograph read from left to the right, there is the past, the present and the future. In the present you interfere with superior criteria (up) and practical issues (down). In the past of your trouble you had the 2 sides of your balance in trouble but start the switches since a series of inconvenient (we just put 4 of their) to a series of observations as pre-conditions to changes or admitted effects. Further then all groups are shape the same: a switch and 4 by 4 points of transition. You may imagine more or less, a cubic shape (like a 6 values dice) fits well too.
Put as higher criteria the sort of spirit you need to drive you out and restore rightly, but with humility a self-esteem especially about your efforts and not a dead end of your dreams of relapsing.
The future is not all rosy but it is normal life with its pains, difficulties and suffering, you have to appreciate in a wise way, like because you are still there and with the resource to add more positive experience among other that will not be all positive.